Though I never really did in the first place.

Being back to my problemless computer hasn't made it easy for me to use it. Aside from the fact that I have been doodling, there's so much distraction and of course personal things going on.

I recently got my school financial plan set and it's like staring into three years of obvious debt. xD Of course I'll go through as much debt as possible if it means I can graduate more awesome then I am now.

Note to some people:
I know I had set up doing some art for people when I was in Wyoming and have let it go for five months. This is what usually happens when the person asking me for art tells me I have all the time in the world, that they're patient. I'll take all the time in the world then. I wish people would give me deadlines for that reason. No matter who you are to me, I'll drop it if you say you're a patient person.

So you have no right to be mad at the mo. xD I warn everyone that I will never probably get it done even before I start. It's the way I've always been. It's why I only do art trades and you never hear about me doing requests.

I know that's mean of me to say on a professional level... You need to just stop being so generous when you ask for art. Most artists will take generous time. Given this is an artist community, some of the population here can relate. /note

I recently lost a ton of weight that I had to forcefully gain back in order not to end back where I was two years ago. If you've been wondering where I've been... I've probably been eating.

Other then that. I'm in my usual place. My desk.

I will be back to my problemless computer after September 10th.

Not like I've been able to draw anything with the constant trying to fix other personal matters over the net whenever I log on anywhere.

So my apologies for not getting to some journals. Continue to * for reason.

I did visit Nevada, Jayd's home area.

Too damn warm. I felt I learned some things that I now need to change due to actually seeing what you'd have to tolerate to be there. Especially near Las Vegas. I was riding passenger and right up next to us was a advertisement van with atleast six naked women on it. I think every .5 minutes there was a prostitute advertisement somewhere. I'm not into that but I felt it gave it character. Everything that is so, so wrong about that place made it all the more interesting. There's no way you could live there and wind up a saint.

The plants were also neat outside of the city limits. I had some pictures taken so I have better references of everything. It was also the first time I saw a real palm tree and other exotic plants that I can actually touch.

I also couldn't believe how accurate I was in predicting what Nevada police uniforms and vehicles were designed to look like. They really are black and white... (i.e. colors very much vary with every US state and even county. Ours are blue and maroon in my district)

I will probably visit there again one day to learn more about it.

Along the way I got to meet an artist friend.

That visit should have been longer. It was way too short in my opinion. Even though two whole days were spent in her culture. Which is beyond my comfort zone. I think she could tell. Even though she's younger then me, I felt she was babysitting me alot of the time. There was absolutely no way I could pretend I could do fine on my own. She made that visit very worth it. My favorite part about it. Another internet friend visited and checked off the list.

With her help, I was able to ask this girl who had this kick ass stand to make me a custom cellphone charm. This charm consists of a blue booze bottle, a brown pistol, and a too cute Jayd head. I don't have any pictures yet, but it's amazing. I tried my best to remember the awesome girl that made it's name. I want to say Kate. (Correct me if I failed Crissy.)

* School is starting soon. Moving to a city by myself is starting to make me nervous. I don't have the comfort I used to have when I logged on or called people on the phone. That's something I'm adjusting to without much argue. I don't have time to feel depressed about it 24/7. Everyone I did talk to is also going through alike problems and right now I've been claimed to be the least help. So again to those that I usually talk to, I think this is a good time for us to keep a distance until I head back home where I can take a breath for a week.

I was told I need to draw them more.

My external hard drive is full of hidden art with pictures that have fully drawn backgrounds. There was a time when I uploaded those on here.

But no one seemed to find them any different then ones without.

So I stopped uploading them.

I was told I need to again.

Only problem is... I need to fix this problem that happened with Photoshop.

Then I'll get onto that.

I also haven't been around very often during the day because my sleep hours are 5am-1pm. Sorry about that, MSN people.

The time has hit.

I've had mixed feelings about it. No one likes to leave the place they don't like at all. I don't want a new place to hate.

What I do want though is make my way back to Denver. I'm chilling in Wyoming again until enrollment in the school gets closer.

It'll be different being in school again, but it'll be amazing because almost all the classes are revolved around things I've actually wanted to learn.

Since the school has people start about every other month or so, I can go in just about anytime. If I ever change my mind.

October is what the school thought was proper with all the moving I have to do.

The application lady didn't give two shits about if I had any personal matters. She also has no sense of humor. None.

This is the first time using a Mac. Life without "right click" options is terrible.

But things have been busy. Ever since I landed in Denver I've been really contemplating and paying attention to things around me. There's a lot of good here, but the air is so dry I was pretty dead the first few days. The coughing up blood has subsided. I drink about 64 oz of water to keep up with not fainting everywhere.

Setting that aside, I still frustrate trying to do anything artistic. So far the time in the air was the only real time I had. With not being able to draw since January... My style has changed dramatically in my own perspective. I can't tell if it's upsetting or not.

The open house for Ai is Saturday. This is probably the most important reason for this trip. I might make a journal about it since it will be what makes me choose what the hell the rest of the year will be like. I really doubt I'll be going back to doing requests though. I've been too caught up in my own life finally to think about what others would like to see from me.

Denver smells like food. It smells like either someone is either having a barbeque or they're having tacos. That's downtown though. I live kitty-corner from this long street plaza.

I also met Kiguri's twin. I thought the real thing was talking to me. It was an odd feeling. Kiguri doesn't have a twin. But if she did, this girl would be it. American cuss words, makeup and all.

Edit:
The open house was a huge twist. I went to the main building expecting to know that Graphic Design was where I needed to be. Then I get to the campus tour and find out that Animation is where I really should be. It was a long overdue visit but getting that far out of state is difficult. Especially with our weather; you never know what's going to happen the next day.

If I play my cards right, I'll be back in school by July. A lot of financial business is still waiting to be talked about so that could determine if I can afford it or not.